How This Blog Work.

I posted his FB post and messages I received in chronological order. So, it's from bottom up. The reason why I post his messages and not mine is simply because I used an outdated phone which is not so smart. And because it's not so smart phone, I am not able to save other messages,…

I NEITHER FORGIVE NOR FORGET.

The danger of forgiving prematurely is that I run the risk of infection and the wound becoming WORSE if I don't clean up. I have use antiseptic to ensure a healthy and full healing. Emotional wounds are no different. I have to scrub clean my emotional wounds before healing can begin. Forgiveness is necessary for…

PAWN ALL SELL ALL

His favourite activity is to buy things then sell them off. He wanted to do his photography business, and being an understanding girlfriend at that point of time, I got a loan for him. But guess who have to live with the debts? And his mobile lines which is parked under my name, well, it…

NOT CAPABLE OF LOVING

He's in love with the idea of love, but not actually love a person. He is thrilled with the initial stage of love, but will escape any responsibility. He is Mohammad Azmi Bin Zulkifli. If going through 5 years with him, and he can turn a blind eye when I was pregnant with his child,…

WARNING 

To those girls who met him or about to fall in love with him, just be careful. He’s married and have a total of 3 children that I’ve known of (1 boy with Fizah, my girl which he never once visit or even try to request for visitation and 1 boy with Ayisha). Maybe there’s some other girls whom he donated his sperms to and fathered the children which I‘m…

NO MORE GAME 

After meeting 2 assholes who added drama in my life and a handful of guys, only then I found my husband. He is the best (for now). Cannot praise him too much. Later he ballooned up and burst.  He cannot cook, but at least he’s patient and willing to try. He takes care of the children when I’m taking my classes. At…

DATING GAME 

Finally, (with my wall up high) I started dating and before knowing my husband there’s this particular guy who said he wants to propose, but there was a lady who messaged me saying that’s her boyfriend. Then another lady saying that is her husband. Met up with both the ladies and told them to ditch that guy immediately. Because I am not…

DEPRESSED 

Nonetheless, I fell into depression for 2 years. I was sad, I was embarrassed. All I wanted was somebody to love, and look what kind of ex-boyfriend I’ve got. Shithead!  I still remember that there was once during fasting month at the bazaar Geylang, I wanted to go to this particular 7-eleven badly. But my cousin stopped me and…

WASHING HIS DIRTY LAUNDRY 

I was obviously hysterical (but not THAT dramatic la). Just tears, not wailing. So he decided to bring this Ayisha somewhere else (maybe he’s scared I poison her mind la). And his friends came to chat up with me. So at that point of time, I didn’t know that I was a degree holder and I was…

SHATTERED 

Dec 2012 my hormones was raging all over the place. Jan 2013 I kept on falling sick. On Feb 2013, got to know there’s something inside of me. A few weeks before that, he got into an accident. When I met him, he said “no matter what, we will overcome this together”.   We fought, we…